I’ve had such a weird week.
I can’t stop singing Regulate, it’s doing my nut in.
I’ve got a new capo.

So firstly, I’ll explain why this week has been weird.

On Saturday, my mum took me and my sister to Cardiff, for Emma’s birthday.
At half 7 that morning, my mum had got a call from Dawn, she’d left a voice mail saying ‘Ring back, it’s serious’.
So we got to the train station and my mum rang her back.
Dawn has been fighting cancer for over a year. About 3 months ago, she was given the all clear. Last Thursday she found out it’s back, and it’s terminal.

So this week, the only thing I’ve been thinking about is the fact that the woman that has been like a second mother to me had weeks - months to live.
That’s really not a long time.

I’ve been in a weird mood this week, and for the first time, I’ve not been bothered about my exams. I can’t even focus on them, and I’m beginning to lose all motivation to pass.

However, on a happier note.
Because of what is happening to Dawn, I was thinking about it and had an idea on Monday. My idea was this… www.facebook.com/mfcancer
Inspired by Dawn, I’ve started a campaign and arranged a benefit gig for her.

This week I’ve realised how many people are actually willing to help you when you need it, and to support you.
There’s so many people I can’t thank enough. All the help I’ve been given with planning everything has been amazing, and all the people that have got involved, and be willing to do it for nothing means so much.

Tuesday, I was really happy all day and really excited with planning everything, and me and my Gran made tickets and it just put my mind off everything.
Wednesday was a good, but absolutely poo day all at the same time. We had to go to Cardiff University for the day, the only good thing about that day was spending it with Wasmina and Maria. It was really funny, Wasmina is so crazy. But it was poo because we missed all the talks we wanted to go to because we left late, and it rained all day… So it was a wasted day being wet.
Thursday was also another wasted day being wet. Although last night was fun - Johari played at the Cooler, and Johari always make me happy. Such lovely people.
I also got to spend some time with Char yesterday, and actually properly talk to her, which was nice. Her and Adam always cheer me up.
Friday hasn’t been as pointless. I’ve chatted such rubbish all day, because I’m suddenly really tired, I don’t understand why because I’ve been sleeping.
Maybe it’s the rain…
I keep blaming everything on the rain.
My mum just said the rain is making our house expand… I didn’t realise that was possible.
I’ve not properly spoken to Josh for a few days, I should get on that. It’s weird without him.

I’m really behind with Game of Thrones, it’s stressing me out.
I also have no time to sit and read, and I’m feeling lost because I can’t just go to Winterfell when I feel like it.

Adam made up a rapper yesterday, called ‘Short Paul’, funniest part of my week, even if I think about it now… hahahahhahah.

Dawn has been giving me random jobs to do to occupy me, so I’m going to go make a cucumber sandwich.